Needed break

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So tired living on little sleep

Always rushing from pillar to post

Phone rings, twitter tweets

Television shouts watch me

Then a chance to stop

Completely stop

Change of scene

Breath fresh air

Re set my time clock

Sleep like a log

Re charge my batteries

Feeling refreshed

Releasing new energy

Sparking my imagination

Relaxing, enjoying the flow

Being more than chilled

Completely lightened, loosened up

Unwound, ready for a new adventure

Completely lightened, loosened up

Unwound, ready for a new adventure

Chronic Regrets

I should not look back

leave the past behind me

Little things niggle

That I can’t let go

The child I missed time with

The loves that I’ve lost

Homes that have gone

Moments that were missed

Kisses now a dream

No hand to hold

I should write them down

Burn the ash and bury

Leave the regrets

Deep in the ground

And make space

To embrace the now

Have empty arms to receive

New love, adventures

Time ticks on

No more chronic regrets.

Too much

This weekend has been just too much. Too much heavy rain, too much rubbish on the television. Too much work and too much of being on my own. Oddly enough even when I am with someone at the moment I feel quite alone. I have no idea why, but being positive seems to have left my body. I know where I should be mentally, i just can’t quite make the leap.

Soaked again by too much rain

head aches from too many sneezes

repeats again on too many channels

blowing wind makes too many tangles

smiles really are too few today

moments alone too many to count

head space filled with too much rubbish

friends around but too alone

soul is crying head wants to join

at the moment its all too much.

Grumpy

I smiled today as I sat in a queue of traffic going to work. A small child was not budging an inch. He was determined that he wasn’t moving until he got what he wanted. I thought how easily we often give in, for peace or for ease. Then I realised, we negotiate, however he hadn’t worked that out yet.

He stood,

Feet firmly planted on the ground

no movement

glued to the pavement

arms folded,

tightly across his chest.

mouth down

frown upon his face

scowling

eyes closed

his mother called

eyes opened

his mother shouted

foot stamped hard

his mother turned away.

moved slowly

He waited,

he watched

as the gap grew

his arms fell

his face changed

he ran with all his might

shouting

small hand

slipped into big hand

happy again.

Right TIme

After yesterdays news came today’s realisation, that its time for a real change. A chance to live more, not worry about the past or try and see into the future but to take the bull by the horns and make the moment the right time to change.

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No more waiting for the right time

no more waiting for your call

no more living in the shadows

Time has opened the door

This is the right time

for me to do the right things

to do what I want

for me to be me

and if you choose

you can dance with me

sing my song

live in my life

for its my right time.

Time to live

The last few weeks have been a real challenge.  Its been hard to keep positive, keep the smile glued to my face, write nice happy postivie blogs and not dwell on the worries that have almost consumed me. Today I got the 2 words I needed to hear more than I LOVE YOU. they are the words that mean a million dollars to me, that will make me live my life. These 2 little words are ALL CLEAR. I am thankful and breath a sigh of relief.

Time ticked slowly

hours blurred together

days an eternity

sun was dull

sky milky blue

colours drained.

Time crawled along

outward smile fading

inside pain of worry

thoughts glued together

seperation impossible

my life drained.

Time stopped

just for a moment

news delivered

I held my breath

All Clear

lifted my mood

smile restored

colours are bright

Time to live.

Awash with emotion

A wash with emotion

Today I am all over the place. Every emotion I can think of consumes me in waves. I know why I just don’t know how to get rid of them all. Today’s tune in my head has been the Proclaimers ‘you broke my heart’.  It seems awfully apt. Not just one person breaking my heart but many. Not just for love, but friendship, kindness and compassion. People are so good at stomping all over you to get what they want. If only they stopped and thought what it does to the other person?

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Pain burning raw inside me

My heart is broken

In a thousand different pieces

By too many people

Who just don’t think?

Unrequited love,

I can’t say those words

I can feel it though

It breaks my heart

You stopped the friendship

After all these years

Too busy for me now

Yet I now shed tears

No one to listens

Hold my hand.

You stole my kindness

You broke my heart

Sucked the living daylights

I now fall apart

Can anyone fix me?

Just a little compassion

Is all I ask?

I am fed up of feeling

That my heart is torn

I want it mended

Loved, cared for

I want to laugh again

Surprise

This weekend has been full of the unexpected and surprises. From a small smile that that made me feel warm, a laugh that made me feel alive. The drizzle of rain which woke me up, and the kindness that had made me fell a million dollars. I am not great at saying how I feel. I use the words ‘nice and like’ more than anything else. To me ‘nice and like’ make my heart sing, make me feel warm, connected and feel alive.

That is how I feel today.

Surprise

its not always wrapped up

in beautiful paper and ribbon

yet still its exciting

its not always visible to the eye

yet it brings tears of joy

It can’t always be held

yet it warms my heart

It is always heard

Time is precious

knowledge is shared

Laughter is mutual

Appreciation of kindness shown

Charming, most Simpatico

Original and Unique

I am always trying to describe myself. There is no one who is the same as me. There is only one me, which you could be thankful for today.  I sat at work and a friend text and said a customer had asked for something unique. I text back… ‘That’s you’ he is like each one of us Unique. So today’s inspiration comes from all things that are original and unique.

Something Original and unique

Is me

Every poem written

By me

Every conversation

With me

Every tear shed

Comfort me

Every kiss is

Passionate me

Every story told

Every poem shared

All my happy thoughts

Are unique to me

and I share them with you