Needed break

gromit

So tired living on little sleep

Always rushing from pillar to post

Phone rings, twitter tweets

Television shouts watch me

Then a chance to stop

Completely stop

Change of scene

Breath fresh air

Re set my time clock

Sleep like a log

Re charge my batteries

Feeling refreshed

Releasing new energy

Sparking my imagination

Relaxing, enjoying the flow

Being more than chilled

Completely lightened, loosened up

Unwound, ready for a new adventure

Completely lightened, loosened up

Unwound, ready for a new adventure

Chronic Regrets

I should not look back

leave the past behind me

Little things niggle

That I can’t let go

The child I missed time with

The loves that I’ve lost

Homes that have gone

Moments that were missed

Kisses now a dream

No hand to hold

I should write them down

Burn the ash and bury

Leave the regrets

Deep in the ground

And make space

To embrace the now

Have empty arms to receive

New love, adventures

Time ticks on

No more chronic regrets.

Too much

This weekend has been just too much. Too much heavy rain, too much rubbish on the television. Too much work and too much of being on my own. Oddly enough even when I am with someone at the moment I feel quite alone. I have no idea why, but being positive seems to have left my body. I know where I should be mentally, i just can’t quite make the leap.

Soaked again by too much rain

head aches from too many sneezes

repeats again on too many channels

blowing wind makes too many tangles

smiles really are too few today

moments alone too many to count

head space filled with too much rubbish

friends around but too alone

soul is crying head wants to join

at the moment its all too much.

Grumpy

I smiled today as I sat in a queue of traffic going to work. A small child was not budging an inch. He was determined that he wasn’t moving until he got what he wanted. I thought how easily we often give in, for peace or for ease. Then I realised, we negotiate, however he hadn’t worked that out yet.

He stood,

Feet firmly planted on the ground

no movement

glued to the pavement

arms folded,

tightly across his chest.

mouth down

frown upon his face

scowling

eyes closed

his mother called

eyes opened

his mother shouted

foot stamped hard

his mother turned away.

moved slowly

He waited,

he watched

as the gap grew

his arms fell

his face changed

he ran with all his might

shouting

small hand

slipped into big hand

happy again.

Right TIme

After yesterdays news came today’s realisation, that its time for a real change. A chance to live more, not worry about the past or try and see into the future but to take the bull by the horns and make the moment the right time to change.

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No more waiting for the right time

no more waiting for your call

no more living in the shadows

Time has opened the door

This is the right time

for me to do the right things

to do what I want

for me to be me

and if you choose

you can dance with me

sing my song

live in my life

for its my right time.

Time to live

The last few weeks have been a real challenge.  Its been hard to keep positive, keep the smile glued to my face, write nice happy postivie blogs and not dwell on the worries that have almost consumed me. Today I got the 2 words I needed to hear more than I LOVE YOU. they are the words that mean a million dollars to me, that will make me live my life. These 2 little words are ALL CLEAR. I am thankful and breath a sigh of relief.

Time ticked slowly

hours blurred together

days an eternity

sun was dull

sky milky blue

colours drained.

Time crawled along

outward smile fading

inside pain of worry

thoughts glued together

seperation impossible

my life drained.

Time stopped

just for a moment

news delivered

I held my breath

All Clear

lifted my mood

smile restored

colours are bright

Time to live.