Roller coaster of emotions.

Today I have seen most of life events, they have stretched out in front of me and made my day very rich. From simplicity to complicated, from baby to death. My inspiration came today from a young man not much older than my own son, whose mother had recently died. I watched him, listened to him, sympathized with him and thought what a wonderful person he was and how his mother must have been so proud. It brought a smile to my face and tears to my eyes. Today has been a roller coaster of emotions.

Head pounds, pain is searing

Brain wants to escape

Heart beats rapidly

Body follows suit

Smile remains on my face

Deep breaths to stay calm

It is not  mysadness

It is not my turmoil

I am here to help

You pour out your heart

I listen without sound

I wait, you finish

All I can do is help you

Your mother would have been proud

I am glad to have met you

enriched my life.

And be thankful for me

My life and my future.

Measured

measured

Time measured by clocks

Liquid measured in a jug

Heat measured by thermometer

Weight measure by scales

Distance measured in miles

Sound measured in decibels

Wood measured with a tape

Happiness measured in laughter

Sadness measured in tears

Heart measured in love

Love measured in kisses

Measurements important in time

Love important to live

What do I know?

So today’s NapoWrimo prompt Is to write a poem about things I know. There are a few of then :-

sea

The sun makes freckles appear on my face

I need my woollen hat when there’s an icy cold wind

That I can’t touch the bottom when I swim out at sea

That the blue Ink in my pen will turn black in time

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When my mobile is on silent it won’t make a noise

Singing makes my heart happy,

And grey days make me sad

the strawberry top seashell is very special to me

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I know where ever I am

what ever the weather

If I can see the sea

I know I am at peace

Insignificant

You have no idea

How I feel As you spoke

I wanted to sink into myself

Your patronising words

Made me shrink

I felt demorolized

that my words were worthless

I wanted the room to engulf me

look after me, comfort me

My confidence squashed

by your negative views

My words do count

everyone of them are mine

Every poem is my musing of the day

My thoughts, my feelings in words

I share them with the world

That’s my choice

regardless of your thoughts

I’ll carry on writing them my way

sadness fills my soul

Sadness fills my soul

my heart is heavier than lead

my head is hung

I can only look down

the floor is grey like my skin

darkness is all around me

the bounce in my voice has left

the smile on my face has gone

I cannot find the light

I cannot find the happiness

I know the change is coming

I just don’t know what to do

to make things change

to make things better

sadness stays in my soul

 

Crossroads in my life

Crossroads in my life

sadness,

disappointment

unhappiness

unforfilled

frustrated

change is needed

nothing will change

unless I do it myself

 

Can’ts stay where I am

or the cloud on my shoulder

will become a heavy burden

and drag me down

 

So which way do I go

so hard to decided

Plan B, C and D are needed

and a positive state of mind

 

I want to be happy

smiling and bright

Forfilled and excitied

I will draw a plan

Change is acomming

Eerie silence fills the air

the day has come for change

My choice, my change

The last day day has come

 

My comfort blanket of a job has stopped

whipped away, my choice

This is the end of an era

Jobs last day has come

 

There is an ache inside for what I know

a sadness for leaving it behind

apprehension for what comes next

I know that this will pass

 

I cant expect different if things stay the same

There is always a choice, which I grab

Today is the end of my comfortable job

On Monday a new chapter starts.

 

Hidden in a Cloak

Face is set with a smiling beam

Bounce in my feet as I enter the room

Joy in my voice as I converse with others

this is the me that others can see

 

The invisible cloak is worn today

I pull it tight, no gaps appear

It is my comfort blanket

I feel safe and warm

 

Why and what are you hiding

Hurt, for I cant say where the pain is

Sadness, for I cant show my tears

Disappointed, but I cant explain why

 

So hidden in the cloak

Are the bits that I cant share with the world

just for a while, I keep it tight around me

Self preservation, until I am stronger

 

 

The rain and I are happy

The Sky darkens, the clouds block the sun
The raindrops fall heavily like daggers stabbing
They are bitter and salty, they cloud up my eyes
The raindrops are tears, the sadness in me

It is the soft mist that brings renewal
It drops on my tongue cool and refreshing
It seeps inside me and hydrates me
Its cleansing and thirst quenching

The rain is gentle it races down my window
It’s fresh from the sky, running down my face
It traces the contours of my face
It dances on the grass and we are both happy